Friday, April 15, 2022



You are going along doing really good and then out of the blue the grief and loneliness hits you and throws you to your knees with the pain of missing that beloved someone who made your life whole. 

You can't hide or run away from it, you just have to survive through it. 

President Russel M. Nelson has said:

"Irrespective of age, we mourn for those loved and lost. Mourning is one of the deepest expressions of pure love...

Moreover, we can't fully appreciate joyful reunions later without tearful separations now. The only way to take sorrow out of death is to take love out of life".

I am so looking forward to that joyful reunion. 

Thursday, April 7, 2022

Two Very Lonely Months

 AJ AZ   High 89  Low 63

I can't believe it's been two months since Jim died. I miss him terribly but I really am doing good enough. 

These months are kind of blurry. So much has happened and is still happening with paper work and medical bills and getting social security and government pensions and life insurance and health insurance all figured out. 

Our weather has been kind of all over the place during these two months. We had snow on the Superstitions.


We've had some record heat already.  Most days have been absolutely beautiful with highs in the 70s or 80s and lows in the 50s or 60s. 

We did have a storm with 58 mph gusts go through and my neighbor, Wendy, took this fantastic picture of our rainbow after the storm.


We donated Jim's clothes to Genesis Project, a local non-profit. We (and by we,  I mean all my friends here) also had a park wide patio sale. We had a good turnout and I sold a lot of Jim's tools and equipment. 

I sold our truck and bought a smaller car that belonged to Paula's mother.  Also sold the Bungalow and I'm now working on selling the boat. It's really hard to let go of all these things but I need to move forward with adjusting to a new normal for me.

On February 26 we held a memorial service for Jim. It was a beautiful service and several people shared memories of Jim. 

This is the program I had done for him. 

The table that Michaela organized for me. 

On a sad note, Chris Mosley who was a speaker at the service, died unexpectedly on March 20th. He was a good man and I miss him. 

Todd and Michaela were able to be here with me for the service.  They also helped me clean out a lot of things and make some decisions. I'm so grateful for them. 

This is the last picture I have of Jim. He took a selfie to send to let his boys know he was home from the hospital. Two days later he was gone. 

I will be staying in Arizona for the summer since this is now home. Wish me luck with the heat.