Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Fear, Anxiety, Worry, Amazement, Relief, Joy

Apache Junction, AZ  High 85  Low 59

I don’t really remember having much fear or anxiety as a child. That was a time of innocence.  During the teen years I had the normal anxieties of passing tests in school or wondering if I would ever get asked to the Prom.

Then I started to work and I actually only had a few moments of anxiety on job interviews because I didn’t change jobs very often. Now job performance reviews were something else.

Also had more than my share of anxiety wondering if I’d ever find the right guy. Took me a long time to find him but I got me a keeper. Well worth the anxiety.

Then we had a son. Fear, anxiety, and worry became my constant companions. Along with an incredible and amazing love that I had never understood before. Guess I’m going to have those around until I leave this ole earth.

Now we face the fears and worries of old age along with medical problems. Jim had his PET scan on Friday and the anxiety and lack of sleep builds to a crescendo until you finally see the oncologist. As you sit in the waiting room, you see all those around you who are fighting this terrible disease – some with strength and laughter, others struggling with their fears.

You are lead into the room to wait for the doctor and try to distract yourself with a book or by playing a game on your phone. Then the doctor walks in, pulls up your test results on his computer, and, in our case, grab hold of each other in joy.

Jim is still cancer free. The relief that washes over you is incredible. Tonight we will be able to sleep again.

50 comments:

  1. Wow - really great news! And I love the way you told it too.

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  2. TaDa! Wonderful news!! That must be some huge relief.

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  3. What a way to end up with joy! you had me gasping there... jeeeez, Sandie!

    soooo so very happy the tests are over and out and the joy is there and now you can go play with abandon! yay,

    I'm sending you and JIm a hug... catch it... it's 10:54pm here... you're ... I can't remember two hours earlier? I go so time zone lagged I ... anyway ... in 6 minutes ! 11pm cst ... I'm sending you all a hug... It'll be a big one ... so stand your ground....

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  4. I am SO happy for Jim and you. I can only imagine what the waiting must be like.

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  5. great post, Sandie, and great news!

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  6. Thank you for the news. I'm sure I'm not the only reader with tears in her eyes. You guys sure deserve good news. Have a good sleep with wonderful dreams tonight. :)

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  7. Congratulations, Jim! Sandie, you described it well. :-)

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  8. You had me on the edge of the couch here reading your blog tonight. I'm glad I read the headline first. I too am thanking our Heavenly Father for your good news!!! Sleep well my friend.

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  9. What good news. I'm so happy to hear Jim is cancer free.

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  10. That is awesome news Sandie!

    Enjoy!

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  11. Can only imagine the elation you must have experienced at that great news, Apprehension, worry, & fear, instantly wiped out with just a few words, Like a second lease on life, Jim has done battle with one of the greatest demon illnesses known to man & lived to walk away & resume his life.. All the continued best........

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  12. Awesome news! Love those kind of test results.

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  13. Prayers answered once again. Our Lord is so great! Thanks for making our day better with this awesome news!

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  14. You kind of *had me* right up to the last minute there. That's awesome news!

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  15. We're so pleased for you both and the wonderful good news! Enjoy your sleep now, you deserve it! :c)

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  16. Glad to hear you got such great news

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  17. Great news. I have been following long enough to partially understand what you have been through.

    I am a cancer survivor and found that no worrying was impossible, but really does not help. Just try to keep it to a minimum.

    Happy Camping.

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  18. Been there, done that and know exactly how you feel. That's great news!!

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  19. WONDERFUL news!! Outstanding!!!
    This was a great post...well said. :=_

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  20. Well, that was suppose to be a smiley face! :-)

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  21. Wonderful News....We'll celebrate next week.

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  22. What joy!! We've been there many times lately with LoraLee and it is always such a relief when she walks out of the doctor's office and says, "the tumors are stable." Congratulations!!

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  23. Prayers answered, you guys will have a wonderful winter in AZ!

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  24. Great news for Jim and we understand the waiting and wondering for results. Well said.

    Have a great winter up there in AJ and hope we can meet up somewhere between there and Tucson this winter.

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  25. Good to hear all is well for Jim. Should be a great winter with the local trips you have planned. Have a great day!

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  26. Fantastic - that's all I can say!

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  27. Oh, Bless you both.. was worried there with you for awhile!!! take Care.. So glad the news is good!!!!!

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  28. How do you spell relief? A good medical report! Yay!

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  29. GREAT, great news. Remember these are the "Golden Years", and think of them as that. God got us this far, he must have a golden plan for us.

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  30. Great news about Bob's cancer... Praise God!!!! YES--anxiety raises its ugly head at times during our lives... That's just normal I think --but what we do with that anxiety is what is important. It's all about ATTITUDE...

    Hopefully, you won't have anymore anxiety for awhile...
    Hugs,
    Betsy

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  31. Great, great news! Enjoy your winter to the fullest!

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  32. hoorah!!!!!!!!! glad to hear the good news. and yes sleep well now. we are pleased to hear. Tom(Dianne too)

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  33. You put into words so much of my own feelings (too) many times over the past years. I am truly thankful for your wonderful news and hope it continues to be so.

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  34. Yay...So Glad To Hear The Good News! :)

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  35. Wonderful news! Doing the Happy Dance!

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  36. So happy for you both. We have so much to be thankful for.

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  37. YIPPEEEE !!! I am soooo looking forward to meeting up with you guys again this year at Q !!

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  38. So glad to hear such good news. :)

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  39. So glad to hear your good news. My Sandy is the worrier in our duo, but it's because she loves deeply and cares so much about her family--much like you. There are worse things.

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  40. Great news! It seems to me that I worry more now than I ever did. Is it because I have more to worry about? Hugs to both of you.

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  41. I am so happy you received such great news. I too have to go in on a regular basis to be checked for that dreaded disease as I had my kidney removed several years ago. I know what your anxiety feels like. I am sorry I am so behind on all my blog reading.

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